August 9th was my last post, apologies for my absence. Really nothing has been going on. Counseling yesterday went well; she believes me that I haven't binged or purged in over two weeks. Hahahahaha. I hate lying but I have to do it now.
Hmm what else? Working at Wendy's - they cut back my hours to me working like once a week? Yeah, aha. They said I'm too slow on sandwiches and always mess up on cash register. Great, just what I need, to be stuck in this house all the time. I wish I could work every day for like eight hours. Hellz yeah, that would be good. But I'll look for another job., one preferably not in the fast food area haha. Of course, only I would fail at a fast food job, you know? Hahaha silly old me.
Well school starts in about two weeks. I'm not really scared at all nor am I dreading it. I'm excited to meet new people and do new things. This is what life is all about I guess and I'm more than willing to give it my all and go out there and have fun! I'm trying to get over mia and I think before I do that I have to re feed a little, showing myself that if I eat I have to keep it in me or not eat at all. But re feeding as in simply eating a salad or a banana, not a five course meal. If there's even such thing? But you get what I'm saying.
Last night for the first time I kept down a salad! Just lettuce, onion and broccoli, but also this time, I put dressing on it. But it was light, only 1g of fat which I'm still sulking about but I'm also proud of myself because I really did keep it down. :)
Although I feel like binging and purging right now. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Um here's the latest update of my leggos -
Hmm what else? Working at Wendy's - they cut back my hours to me working like once a week? Yeah, aha. They said I'm too slow on sandwiches and always mess up on cash register. Great, just what I need, to be stuck in this house all the time. I wish I could work every day for like eight hours. Hellz yeah, that would be good. But I'll look for another job., one preferably not in the fast food area haha. Of course, only I would fail at a fast food job, you know? Hahaha silly old me.
Well school starts in about two weeks. I'm not really scared at all nor am I dreading it. I'm excited to meet new people and do new things. This is what life is all about I guess and I'm more than willing to give it my all and go out there and have fun! I'm trying to get over mia and I think before I do that I have to re feed a little, showing myself that if I eat I have to keep it in me or not eat at all. But re feeding as in simply eating a salad or a banana, not a five course meal. If there's even such thing? But you get what I'm saying.
Last night for the first time I kept down a salad! Just lettuce, onion and broccoli, but also this time, I put dressing on it. But it was light, only 1g of fat which I'm still sulking about but I'm also proud of myself because I really did keep it down. :)
Although I feel like binging and purging right now. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Um here's the latest update of my leggos -
Feet together, my hand is simply holding my hoodie up, I know it looks awkward haha. But yeah, that's about it. Stay strong everyone. ♥
yeah its hard to learn to eati cat figureit outso insteadof acutally eating mealsi just pcik at food thru out the dayi konw its not the best thing but o well
ReplyDeletei work retail and those 8 hours days r killer on me causei get dizzy but just saying
ur legs looks good
I wish my legs looked like yours :L Jealous, if you don't mind me saying! Keep up the good work :) Xo
ReplyDeletePretty skiinny legs ya got there dear.
ReplyDeleteStay strong ♥
Your legs look amazing, ;) I am vair vair jealous <3 I can't wait until mine look like that! Also I love your blog
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