Thursday, April 8, 2010

admit it, you're nothing.

First I want to say sorry for my break down yesterday, I'm usually not like that. But today was goodgoodgood :) - 123/124! I purged twice today, but what else is new. So I have nothing in me, and it feels great! I'm going to practice pitching in a little bit, then some more crunches before bed. I do about 100 every night; workin' on my soon-to-be-abs! Hahah well, someday abs. They're not even showing! But my ribs are, :) So I'm thinking about fasting tomorrow, for real this time. You know what I realized? And not to offend anyone at all, I'm bulimic myself, but bulimia is for the weak. it's for people who don't have self-control, and I want to gain self-control. I mean, don't you kinda agree with this? I'm not strong enough to resist food, so I indulge in it when i should really be avoiding it. Again, I'm sorry if that was mean, I don't mean to be mean in any way at all! :) Just a little thought of mine.
But back on the schedule for tomorrow; I'm going to fast, not eat. If I can make it through one day, I can make it through many many more. I'll write every time I want to eat, and if anyone ever needs anything I'm here for you. If you live in the U.S. I have texting and I would love to have more 'buddies' :) just email me for my number at emmbee413@aim.com.
One last thing, I want to say thanks for my new followers! :D I hope you're all doing well and don't hesitate to comment me. I'd love to read what you have to say! :)

4 comments:

  1. Hey congrats on getting to 123/124! Awesoem dude. We all have our ups and downs, and it helps sometimes to write them in our blog, we understand. I would give you my number but I live in Ireland.
    *hug*, xo.

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  2. that is really annoying, sorry I left you a comment but it has disappeared.

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  3. I tagged you :)

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  4. I kind of agree with you, but agree, not in a mean way at all. It's just with bulimia, there doesn't seem to be as much self-control involved. No offence to anyone.
    You don't have a blackberry do you? I'd love more texting buddies but it doesn't work too well if they live in another country haha.
    Take care,
    xoxo

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